8 Ways You Can Greatly Lower Your Chances Of Being Doxxed By The Thought Police

We live in a day and age where left wing extremists and blue-haired cunts feel like they’re doing a public service by making life hell for masculine men who make no apologies for refusing to date transgenders or standing against open borders. A good example of this is when Roosh was banned from the UK for speaking out against militant homosexuality, even though he hasn’t called for violence, has no criminal record, and in general is not a threat.

If you’re on Twitter, you’ve probably seen the phrase “Twitter do ya thing”, where low IQ millennials attempt to get Trump supporters fired and blacklisted from their careers by calling their place of work or school. While there is no such thing 100% anonymity when a telecommunications device is involved, there are some basic, common sense steps you can take to avoid being a victim.

1. Use a reliable VPN

A VPN encrypts the traffic between your computer and network in addition to hiding your IP address. Using a VPN ensures trolls can’t find your real IP address and then call your internet service provider to gain information about you through social engineering. The US recently passed a law allowing ISP’s to sell your data to marketers for profit, so at this point using a paid VPN service that doesn’t keep logs is just good internet hygiene.

2. Register your social media accounts under pseudonyms and burner email addresses

Just by operating your social media accounts or blog under an alias, you take away 90% of what the left-wing mob has to work with. While I’m not saying they deserved it, most of the people who are successfully doxed by gender fluid womyn’s studies majors have far too much pointless personal information on their profiles. You posting under your legal name and having your exact city in your bio is pointless info that can only serve to harm you.

3. Do not click on suspicious links

It sounds painfully simple, but one of the most popular ways Anonymous-affiliated basement dwellers glean information such as your IP Address or remotely install a keylogger onto your device is by sending you a URL via direct message to click on.

Do not click on any weird looking URL’s, in fact, don’t click any URL’s at all. Ask the message sender what the URL is about, then Google it yourself. Frequent scans of your devices with programs like Malwarebytes can’t hurt.

4. Max out your privacy settings across all of your devices and social media accounts

Friends list? Private. Email address? Private. Workplace? Don’t post it. Date of birth? Private. Limit advertising tracker? On. Location Services? ALWAYS off for photos. An experienced cybers-stalker’s favorite way to find their victim’s home address is by analyzing the metadata of a photo.

This isn’t a cybersecurity blog so I won’t get too technical but you can save yourself from a great headache by going into your device’s location settings and making sure your camera never uses location info.

5. Use two-Factor authentication when possible

Even the most experienced cyber vandal will have a hard time getting into your iCloud account with that video of you throwing up in a back alley after getting shitfaced drunk if it requires a code to be sent to your phone in tandem with a password.

6. Use a password manager

Roboform password manager

There are several very cheap password managers out there that generate almost impenetrably strong, unique passwords for each individual site. In addition, most will notify you when a website you have an account on has had a data breach and your password has been leaked.

This is critical because many people use the same weak password for each individual site, and legions of dorks like Anonymous have access to lists of leaked passwords and email addresses, which they keep a record of to ‘try their luck’ in case someone uses the same credentials elsewhere.

7. Audit yourself

A great website to find out how much information about you is out there is Pipl. Go to Pipl and search your name, email address, and any current or former usernames you’ve used on social media. See if they match each other. For example, if your name or true email address pops up when you search a username of yours, then you’re liable to get doxed if you piss someone off.

8. Remove Yourself

If you live in the United States, chances are your name, home/email addresses, and phone number are being sold for profit among data brokers and people search websites. Some have more of their personal information out there than others but chances are if this is the first you’ve heard of this, you have more info about you that’s readily available online than you would like. Use Expeal to make sure your information isn’t displayed.

Thankfully if you’re a US Resident these sites are required by law to comply with your opt-out request and if you’re an EU Resident, it may be illegal for them to even collect the info in the first place.


Thankfully for us, our opponents aren’t very smart or resourceful people. If you practice basic common sense, you most likely will never have to worry about this happening to you.

The Near Future of America, the point of no return?

The Near Future of America, the way I see it.


Anyone with a brain can see that the nation is heading down a dark and dangerous path, our president is consolidating more power then any previous president, he has promised trillions of dollars in more spending, and has already spent more money then ALL previous president in the history of the United States.  The government is growing at break neck speed, and promises of increased social spending has put unpaid liabilities and current foreseeable debt at 100,000,000,000,000 plus dollars, with the Universal healthcare bill, the nation is at a point of NO return.
Taxes have to go up hurting the consumer spending even further, with the economy is already on its knees, with housing taking a break and more foreclosures on the way next year, consumer spending at all time lows, and saving rates increasing among most Americans, we can be assured that the economy is not coming back next year, not in 5 years, probably not until the 2020’s.  Socialism and communism are on the march in the minority communities across this nation, national ethnic pride among Latinos is at an all time high and continuing to increase in size and political power in the southwest, ensuring the growth of secessionist movements among Latinos.  Blacks have gone to great lengths to enforce their anti-white agenda within the democrat party, affirmative action schools, banks, housing, cars, jobs, and even who lives and who dies.  Blacks have been targeting whites for every sort of crime on the books, rapes, murders, and robberies on the rise, black on white crime is growing, and with the internet, we all see who the victim is and why, we hear the racial remarks from blacks as they beat the white student on the school bus, or mug the white pedestrian walking down the street.  We have watched the documentaries on race in America, we see and hear the animosity from blacks expressed against white, for slavery, for drugs, for low income housing, for being white period.

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We are at a point where white Americans must evaluate their relationship with the United States government and its proxies.  Rest assured civil unrest is coming, street violence will increase, and protest marches will grow, white America has awaken to the threat.  We must understand why we see very few Asians, Latinos, and black participation in the tea parties, tax protests and other pro-American movements, because what is good for us is bad for their people, what is bad for us is good for their people.  Simple as that, Asians feel that these crackers might send them back home, their real home, Latinos don’t want to see white people assert our rights in our country, that might interfere with their take over, and blacks want whatever they can get for the years they were used as slave labor.  An awakening in the white consciousness will certainly lead to conflict with the other groups who occupy our nation.  We cannot embrace separatism, for then we would be surrounded on all sides by enemy peoples, we cannot take this nation back through the vote because they are breeding us out of house and home, no my brothers this conflict will start out cold, but surely as the rising sun, it will become hot.  Maybe a protest between anti-white Latinos and tea party groups carrying fire arms will turn deadly as Latinos throw rocks, maybe the local police will fire on pro-gun protests, only time will tell, but it will occur probably not this year, but definitely within the next few years.  Arm yourselves, stock pile guns and ammo you will need them.

House passes Obama economic stimulus plan President: America is officially DEAD, 30% of bill contains pork spending.

House passes Obama economic stimulus plan,

America is officially DEAD.  No Republicans supported

it. When it fails, you will know who is to blame.  Lock

and load people, when the riots begin, one shot one

kill, remember Katrina.

President: ‘Perilous moment’ requires swift action to kick-start economy.  30% of bill contains pork spending.

WASHINGTON – The Democratic-controlled House approved $819 billion in spending increases and tax cuts at the heart of President Barack Obama’s economic recovery program Wednesday evening, despite Republicans’ charges that the bill is wasteful.

“We don’t have a moment to spare,” Obama declared earlier Wednesday at the White House as Democrats hastened to do his bidding.

A mere eight days after Inauguration Day, Speaker Nancy Pelosi heralded a new era. “The ship of state is difficult to turn,” said the California Democrat. “But that is what we must do. That is what President Obama called us to do in his inaugural address.”

The stimulus package passed by a vote of 244-188. Eleven Democrats voted against the measure, while no Republicans supported it.

With unemployment at its highest level in a quarter-century, the banking industry wobbling despite the infusion of staggering sums of bailout money and states struggling with budget crises, Democrats said the legislation was desperately needed.

“Another week that we delay is another 100,000 or more people unemployed. I don’t think we want that on our consciences,” said Rep. David Obey, D-Wis., chairman of the House Appropriations Committee and one of the leading architects of the legislation.

Republicans said the bill was short on tax cuts and contained too much spending, much of it wasteful and unlikely to help laid-off Americans.

The party’s leader, Rep. John Boehner of Ohio, said the measure “won’t create many jobs, but it will create plenty of programs and projects through slow-moving government spending.”

The legislation includes an estimated $544 in federal spending and $275 billion in tax cuts for individuals and businesses.

Included is money for traditional job-creating programs such as highway construction and mass transit projects. But the measure tickets far more for unemployment benefits, health care and food stamp increases designed to aid victims of the worst economic downturn since the Great Depression of the 1930s.

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Tens of billions of additional dollars would go to the states, which confront the prospect of deep budget cuts of their own. That money marks an attempt to ease the recession’s impact on schools and law enforcement. With funding for housing weatherization and other provisions, the bill also makes a down payment on Obama’s campaign promise of creating jobs that can reduce the nation’s dependence on foreign oil.

The centerpiece tax cut calls for a $500 break for single workers and $1,000 for couples, including those who don’t earn enough to owe federal income taxes.

The House vote marked merely the first of several major milestones a for the legislation, which Democratic leaders have pledged to deliver to the White House for Obama’s signature by mid-February.

Already a more bipartisan — and costlier — measure is taking shape in the Senate, and Obama personally pledged to House and Senate Republicans in closed-door meetings on Tuesday that he is ready to accept modifications as the legislation advances.

Rahm Emanuel, a former Illinois congressman who is Obama’s chief of staff, invited nearly a dozen House Republicans to the White House late Tuesday for what one participant said was a soft sales job.

This lawmaker quoted Emanuel as telling the group that polling shows roughly 80 percent support for the legislation, and that Republicans oppose it at their political peril. The lawmaker spoke on condition of anonymity, saying there was no agreement to speak publicly about the session.

In fact, though, many Republicans in the House are virtually immune from Democratic challenges because of the makeup of their districts, and have more to fear from GOP primary challenges in 2010. As a result, they have relatively little political incentive to break with conservative orthodoxy and support hundreds of billions in new federal spending.


President-elect Barack Obama
Stimulus plan
Details of the $825 billion stimulus plan proposed by House Democrats working with President Barack Obama.

Also, some Republican lawmakers have said in recent days they know they will have a second chance to support a bill when the final House-Senate compromise emerges in a few weeks.

That gave an air of predictability to the proceedings in the House, as Democrats defended the legislation as an appropriate response to the specter of double-digit unemployment in the near future.

Rep. Randy Neugebauer, R-Texas, sought to strip out all the spending from the legislation before final passage, arguing that the entire cost of the bill would merely add to soaring federal deficits. “Where are we going to get the money,” he asked.

Obey had a ready retort. “They don’t look like Herbert Hoover, I guess, but there are an awful lot of people in this chamber who think like Herbert Hoover,” he said, referring to the president whose term is forever linked in history with the Great Depression.

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Race realism, Ethnic Nationalism, are still alive and growing.

Race realism, Ethnic Nationalism, are still alive and growing.  Moronic liberal self destructive communist like yourself are what will be doing the dieing when the time comes.  The world you created with the 1960’s revolution overthrowing the government of the United States of America is coming to an end.  Your racist politics of anti-white egalitarianism are falling apart, your attempt at creating a world devoid of individual thought out side of the politically correct doctrine has failed, you can only go so long against what is the natural tendencies of human kind before you pay the price.  The west is now dieing because of people like you, culturally, linguistically, socially, politically, militarily (except America) and in nearly every other facet, the western world is in decline.  We only have to look to what Latinos, Asians, and Africans as a whole hold dear, and that’s blood, their people, and they will choose their own people every time over one of yours you fool.  As they gain power in western nations, your power declines, as they have more children and you have none, your power declines, as their culture and language take priority, your power declines.  Your cities have become a bastardized mishmash of crumbling infrastructure and 3 world ghettos, like so many before you, you have failed.  From the ashes of the west, we will rise, you will die in the chaos and anarchy of the transition, you will be put down like the old dieing dogs that you are.  Riots and conflict now reign in many places of Europe and soon will reign in America, and when America falls your ideology will die with it.  Try as you may no economic bail out can bail out the morally corrupt and inept you represent, the corruption of the soul cannot be bailed out, no amount of money can fix what cannot be fixed.  We will mark our future history book with your failures so that future generation will come to know the name of what had caused the collapse of Western civilization, and that name is egalitarianism, socialism, communism, and liberalism, all brothers and sisters of death.  We will not roll over and die, that’s your job.  And if you think creating a fascist socialist police state will shut us down, you are wrong, we will only get stronger, our voice louder amongst our people and we will prepare for what is to come, we will find those like yourself, and when the killing begins, you cannot hide among us, we will seek you out and you will pay for what you have done.

Table A-2. Employment status of the civilian population by race, sex, and age

  HOUSEHOLD DATA                                                                                                           HOUSEHOLD DATA

  Table A-2.  Employment status of the civilian population by race, sex, and age

  (Numbers in thousands)

                                                   Not seasonally adjusted                      Seasonally adjusted (1)                  

      Employment status, race, sex, and age
                                                   Dec.      Nov.      Dec.      Dec.      Aug.     Sept.      Oct.      Nov.      Dec.
                                                   2007      2008      2008      2007      2008     2008       2008      2008      2008  


  Civilian noninstitutional population.........  189,093   190,221   190,351   189,093   189,747   189,916   190,085   190,221   190,351
    Civilian labor force.......................  125,334   126,057   125,588   125,403   125,987   125,844   126,298   126,029   125,634
        Participation rate.....................     66.3      66.3      66.0      66.3      66.4      66.3      66.4      66.3      66.0
      Employed.................................  120,004   118,721   117,409   119,947   119,082   118,964   118,722   118,226   117,357
        Employment-population ratio............     63.5      62.4      61.7      63.4      62.8      62.6      62.5      62.2      61.7
      Unemployed...............................    5,331     7,336     8,179     5,456     6,904     6,880     7,577     7,803     8,277
        Unemployment rate......................      4.3       5.8       6.5       4.4       5.5       5.5       6.0       6.2       6.6
    Not in labor force.........................   63,759    64,165    64,763    63,690    63,761    64,072    63,787    64,193    64,718 

             Men, 20 years and over
    Civilian labor force.......................   65,462    65,681    65,424    65,471    65,680    65,718    65,792    65,762    65,331
        Participation rate.....................     76.2      76.0      75.6      76.3      76.2      76.2      76.2      76.1      75.5
      Employed.................................   62,789    61,995    60,965    62,929    62,336    62,125    61,972    61,761    61,101
        Employment-population ratio............     73.1      71.7      70.5      73.3      72.3      72.0      71.8      71.5      70.7
      Unemployed...............................    2,674     3,686     4,459     2,542     3,344     3,593     3,821     4,001     4,230
        Unemployment rate......................      4.1       5.6       6.8       3.9       5.1       5.5       5.8       6.1       6.5 

            Women, 20 years and over
    Civilian labor force.......................   54,465    55,131    55,033    54,249    54,703    54,543    54,891    54,810    54,878
        Participation rate.....................     60.4      60.8      60.6      60.2      60.5      60.2      60.6      60.4      60.5
      Employed.................................   52,517    52,454    52,199    52,148    52,113    52,233    52,178    52,014    51,846
        Employment-population ratio............     58.3      57.8      57.5      57.8      57.6      57.7      57.6      57.3      57.1
      Unemployed...............................    1,948     2,677     2,833     2,101     2,590     2,310     2,714     2,796     3,031
        Unemployment rate......................      3.6       4.9       5.1       3.9       4.7       4.2       4.9       5.1       5.5 

           Both sexes, 16 to 19 years
    Civilian labor force.......................    5,406     5,245     5,131     5,683     5,604     5,583     5,615     5,457     5,425
        Participation rate.....................     41.3      40.0      39.1      43.4      42.8      42.6      42.9      41.6      41.4
      Employed.................................    4,698     4,272     4,245     4,870     4,634     4,605     4,572     4,451     4,409
        Employment-population ratio............     35.9      32.6      32.4      37.2      35.4      35.2      34.9      34.0      33.6
      Unemployed...............................      709       973       886       813       970       978     1,043     1,006     1,016
        Unemployment rate......................     13.1      18.6      17.3      14.3      17.3      17.5      18.6      18.4      18.7 

           BLACK OR AFRICAN AMERICAN                                                                                                     

  Civilian noninstitutional population.........   27,704    28,021    28,059    27,704    27,896    27,939    27,982    28,021    28,059
    Civilian labor force.......................   17,498    17,683    17,720    17,574    17,949    17,733    17,768    17,708    17,796
        Participation rate.....................     63.2      63.1      63.2      63.4      64.3      63.5      63.5      63.2      63.4
      Employed.................................   15,999    15,705    15,649    16,013    16,026    15,709    15,762    15,703    15,674
        Employment-population ratio............     57.7      56.0      55.8      57.8      57.4      56.2      56.3      56.0      55.9
      Unemployed...............................    1,499     1,979     2,071     1,561     1,923     2,024     2,006     2,005     2,122
        Unemployment rate......................      8.6      11.2      11.7       8.9      10.7      11.4      11.3      11.3      11.9
    Not in labor force.........................   10,206    10,338    10,339    10,129     9,947    10,206    10,214    10,313    10,263 

             Men, 20 years and over
    Civilian labor force.......................    7,858     7,957     7,981     7,888     8,072     8,000     7,961     7,954     7,999
        Participation rate.....................     70.4      70.6      70.7      70.7      72.0      71.2      70.7      70.5      70.8
      Employed.................................    7,196     7,013     6,879     7,244     7,213     7,049     7,019     6,989     6,930
        Employment-population ratio............     64.5      62.2      60.9      64.9      64.3      62.7      62.3      62.0      61.4
      Unemployed...............................      662       944     1,102       644       859       952       942       965     1,069
        Unemployment rate......................      8.4      11.9      13.8       8.2      10.6      11.9      11.8      12.1      13.4 

            Women, 20 years and over
    Civilian labor force.......................    8,814     9,069     9,031     8,830     9,036     8,931     9,016     9,069     9,060
        Participation rate.....................     63.5      64.5      64.2      63.6      64.6      63.7      64.2      64.5      64.4
      Employed.................................    8,212     8,234     8,264     8,203     8,218     8,097     8,213     8,249     8,256
        Employment-population ratio............     59.1      58.6      58.7      59.1      58.7      57.8      58.5      58.7      58.7
      Unemployed...............................      602       836       767       627       818       834       804       820       804
        Unemployment rate......................      6.8       9.2       8.5       7.1       9.1       9.3       8.9       9.0       8.9 

           Both sexes, 16 to 19 years
    Civilian labor force.......................      826       657       708       856       842       802       790       685       736
        Participation rate.....................     31.0      24.4      26.3      32.2      31.4      29.9      29.4      25.5      27.4
      Employed.................................      590       457       506       567       595       563       531       464       488
        Employment-population ratio............     22.2      17.0      18.8      21.3      22.2      21.0      19.8      17.3      18.1
      Unemployed...............................      235       199       202       289       247       239       260       221       248
        Unemployment rate......................     28.5      30.4      28.5      33.8      29.3      29.8      32.9      32.2      33.7 


  Civilian noninstitutional population.........   10,801    10,811    10,873     (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)
    Civilian labor force.......................    7,225     7,134     7,223     (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)
        Participation rate.....................     66.9      66.0      66.4     (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)
      Employed.................................    6,958     6,791     6,857     (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)
        Employment-population ratio............     64.4      62.8      63.1     (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)
      Unemployed...............................      267       343       365     (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)
        Unemployment rate......................      3.7       4.8       5.1     (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)
    Not in labor force.........................    3,577     3,677     3,651     (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)       (2)   

    1 The population figures are not adjusted for seasonal variation; therefore, identical numbers appear in the unadjusted and
  seasonally adjusted columns.
    2 Data not available.
    NOTE:  Estimates for the above race groups will not sum to totals shown in table A-1 because data are not presented for all races.
  Updated population controls are introduced annually with the release of January data.  Seasonally adjusted household data have been
  revised to reflect updated seasonal adjustment factors.

 Unemployment rates
                         |        |        |        |        |        |
All workers .............|     6.0|     6.9|     6.6|     6.8|     7.2|     0.4
  Adult men .............|     5.8|     6.8|     6.4|     6.7|     7.2|      .5
  Adult women ...........|     5.0|     5.6|     5.4|     5.6|     5.9|      .3
  Teenagers .............|    19.7|    20.7|    20.7|    20.4|    20.8|      .4
  White .................|     5.4|     6.3|     6.0|     6.2|     6.6|      .4
  Black or African       |        |        |        |        |        |
    American ............|    10.7|    11.5|    11.3|    11.3|    11.9|      .6
  Hispanic or Latino     |        |        |        |        |        |
    ethnicity ...........|     7.8|     8.9|     8.8|     8.6|     9.2|      .6

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I want Obama to win. We must allow everything to occur as it is intended.

I want Obama to win.  I may die during the conflict, but we will fight when the time comes, and we will win.

Here is how we win this new conflict with an old history.  We must allow everything to occur as it is intended.

I want Obama to do everything he and his anti-white communist elites have planned, I want them to break the economic back of this nation with massive spending, I want him to fire all white heterosexual males currently working within the government and only hire minorities, I want Obama to push every liberal agenda to mainstream and break the moral and linguistic heritage of this nation.  I want this nation to die, a slow and painful death.  I want Obama to weaken our nation militarily, I want Obama to break down our central intelligence agency, making it easier for terrorists to infiltrate this nation.  I want communist and islamists to run freely over the landscape, I want the islamists terrorists to detonate a nuclear bomb in ten major metropolitan cities.  I want Obama to declare our constitution illegal, and no longer needed in the brave new world order.  The left in the west are moving towards the creation of a communist block federation of nations once called the western world.  I want them to open the borders and allow every illegal alien to enter this nation from all over the world, and bankrupt and destroy the local and state economies.

Why do I want these things?  Because these events will destroy this nation, economically first, riots and crime will skyrocket. Second they will destroy this nation socially, education will collapse, madness and insanity will reign supreme. The left will destroy this nation there is nothing we can do about, only when whites realize that non-white males must go, will we even begin to wake the hell up, and I have one thing to fall back on, my 12 gauge shot gun, my 6.8 spc AR-15 assault rifle, other planned weapons, and my various home made weapon systems.  Not to mention multiply levels of body armor, and other homemade defensive systems.

This nation must die politically, socially and economically, so that the white males who own 95% of the fire arms in this nation can do something about it.  The nation must die so when can rebuild, 1 in 3 of us must sacrifice our lives, we must embrace the destruction of the west, only then will the white males rise up and destroy our enemies, take back what’s rightfully ours, and kill everyone who moved against us.  A world wide race war is what’s needed, and America is the lynch pin of the liberal democracies within the west, when America goes, the west will follow, and then the rise of white Nationalist is all but assured.

White Nationalist government will come to power after the collapse of the west!!!  Think about it, don’t fight it, buy guns and ammo, buy food and water, buy body armor and NBC gear for you and your family, get ready and be prepared, and when the time comes my brothers, I will see you on the battlefield from the streets of L.A. to New York’s Central park, it will not occur in the next 4-5 years, but soon afterwards, we will retake what is ours, allow the world to see the first African Dictator of America, allow this nation to die, be joyful when terrorist attack us, allow this nation to die, and then and only then will we rise to power.  Many of us will die, but the West will be reborn, and our constitution will be reborn in our image, it will protect the ethnic nature of our nation and that of the west, and we must make ready for time is coming when you will no longer be able to purchase what you need to survive.  Be ready, buy plenty of guns and ammo, our organization will come when it is intended to occur, when we need it to save our people, and not a moment sooner.  Obama will fail, liberalism will fail, you cannot defy human nature for very long, until you face the consequences of your defiance.

Black Locust

Dear Black America…

Dear Black America…


A draft for a letter I’m thinking of sending….

Dear Black America,

In the midst of what is for you the joyous occasion of the inauguration of the first black president of the United States, I’m really sorry to have to write something that I know is going to hurt you. It’s the last thing I would ever want to do. But I’ve been thinking about it for a long time now, and there’s no getting around the truth.

You know it and I know it. Our marriage is not working out.

I want a divorce.

I have not come to this decision lightly. When we married, we promised to stay together for the rest of our lives, “till death do us part.” And I’ve taken that vow seriously through all these years, and tried ceaselessly to fix what was wrong with me to try to make you happy. And then, there are the children, who didn’t get to choose their parents and now will have to suffer from our failed marriage. But you know, sometimes, a marriage is just so impossible and so hurtful to everyone that there’s nothing left to do but cut your losses. I’ve decided that’s what I need to do.

I’m not playing the saint here. I wasn’t a saint at all. It was I who started things to begin with. I seduced you and took advantage of you, and I forced you to do things against your will. It was terribly wrong and there’s nothing I can do to fix the way I hurt you. True, that’s the way everyone did things in those days. I did try, in my own way, to treat you well…. Well, I don’t need to remind you what happened after that. We got into a situation where the only honorable thing to do was to offer to marry you. I gave you the option to get out quietly, but you said no, we were together and you meant for us to stay together, and so we were married.

We never got along completely peacefully, but I think that, at least at first, we both tried to make it work out. You asked me to teach you about what was in all those books of mine, so you could improve yourself and so we’d have more in common to talk about. And I think we were both pretty excited about the progress you made, at first. I tried to get to know your interests, too, and really came to appreciate your charms and your talents and your own special kind of wisdom. We went places together, and we helped each other out in all sorts of ways. I thought things were going pretty well there for awhile. Even you have to admit we had some good times.

I always tried to be good to you, and I think I did many things to help you. But I admit, despite my best intentions, I could sometimes be abusive and violent and cruel to you. I didn’t mean to be, but I was. I was used to being in control and I felt threatened when you challenged me on it. Oh, you provoked me often enough, and nobody can be meaner than you when you want to be, but I’m not going to use that as an excuse. I take responsibility for my own actions. I eventually managed to get myself under control, and I thought you’d forgiven me for the past and that we had an understanding now of how to settle disputes between us. And we had a period where I thought we got along pretty well. Don’t you think so?

Well, it came as a shock when you came out and said you were miserable and that I was still mistreating you just as badly as before. You wanted us to be equal. You wanted an equal say in how our household was run, you wanted an equal share of our possessions and prestige. Well, I was completely shocked because I’d always figured the arrangement we had was what was best for both of us. We weren’t completely equal, but each of us had his own sphere of activity and it seemed to work smoothly most of the time. But what could I say if that’s what you wanted? I believe in marriage as an equal partnership; I don’t want to keep my spouse under my thumb. So I promised to devote myself to making our partnership into an equal partnership.

Well, I believe I have done the best any person could do to meet your request. I’ve had myself analyzed and re-educated; I’ve apologized and renounced my acts;  I’ve been punished and rebuked. I cut off ties with those relatives of mine who didn’t accept you; I sent money and gave my help to your relatives across town and invited some of them to join our family. And I never lost faith. Every time I tried something new, I believed that this time, you would be happy.

Instead, I’ve ended up the victim in an abusive relationship. First there is the physical abuse. I just never know when you’re going to lash out and hit me or worse. There’s been some sexual abuse too, I’m sorry to say. Then there is the psychological abuse. You are constantly talking about our past and how I’ve mistreated you, and I’m starting to realize that you’re exaggerating and making up things that aren’t even true. And you’ve made me a stranger in my own home, talking about me with your friends and telling the children lies about me to get them to side against me. Then, when I draw back from you, you get teary-eyed and sentimental and tell me I need to understand you, that if we both just try a little harder we can get along. Something about you is so sweet when you cry to me like that that I begin to believe what you say. But now I realize it’s part of the way you manipulate me.

And I don’t know why it’s only recently that I’ve noticed you never say you love me?

I have to be honest with myself. Living with you makes me miserable. I’ve given up my friends, my hobbies, even my values and beliefs, to try to make you happy. But it’s just not working out. And I’ve realized that it never can. You know why? We are just naturally different. We don’t fit together, spiritually, intellectually, or physically. And we really have known it all along. I’m not saying this to put you down. You are a wonderful person. But you need to be with someone else, not me. And the same is true for me. If I stay with you, I seriously feel it is going to destroy me.

What I’ve said may be very hurtful to you. So though it may not help any, I want to say that I care about you very much. We have been together for a long, long time and our lives have been changed forever by the experience. In some ways, we know each other better than anyone. I value the good times we had together and all the things you have taught me. It is a cliché, but I sincerely hope that we’ll be able to be friends, once the pain of separation has subsided. We like and care about many of the same things, and sometimes we really enjoy each other’s company. And I assure you that if you ever need help in the future, I’ll do anything in my power to assist you.

I want to be friends. But I don’t want to be married to you anymore. I want a divorce.

Please try to understand.


White America